Kinda Bummed

Well, today the new school year began. Teachers and students are getting to know each other, students are learning rules and expectations, and meeting other students who will become their best friend. I really believed with all my heart that I would be doing that at this time. I am at a loss as to why I do not have a job. I have applied with 15, yes 15! districts and nothing, not one word!! I'm trying so hard to keep the faith but I have to admit, I'm bummed .....sad...upset...?????? I've applied to substitute with Arlington and Mansfield ISD's but I just can't seem to muster up the enthusiasm to sub. I just know how students behave with a sub and I don't want to have to deal with that, but it looks like I have no choice....I go Friday for Mansfield orientation but can't get into Arlington till Sept. 29th... I feel so let down. I mean, I feel I have done my part( going to school, passing classes, student teaching, graduation) and yet here I am without a job. Should I just get a job and give up on my dream of teaching? I can't seem to do that. I still feel in my heart this is what Heavenly Father wants be to do, I just do not understand how I am to do this without a job/or a class of my own... Ok enough of this pity party! I will do what I have to do to teach, whether it is in my own classroom or through substituting and will see where it leads me!