Every Thing Happens for a Reason!

I'm not sure what to title this blog. I really just wanted to write my thoughts and feelings and I am not sure how to sum everything up in 2 words. I have been fretting over not having a job, and yes I have attended a few pity parties. But, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Of course sometimes it takes reflecting on something before the reason appears and sometimes the reason never appears. While reflecting on the past I realize now why I had my accident. One reason I discovered was that Heavenly Father knew I couldn't handle losing my grandmother/or attending her funeral so I guess he needed to distract me. This also allowed me to be home and able to home school Whitney when her allergies/asthma was so bad she could not attend school. Also during this time I had lots of free time to read, think,ponder, and yes, pray. It was during this time that I finally realized what I needed to do with my life and this was to go back to school and get my degree in order to teach. Now, back to the present....I feel I have done everything I could to find a job. We needed this job not only for the income but, also for the health insurance. Right now we have health insurance with Dan's company but yesterday the company presented a new insurance plan. This one is worse than what we have now. It will cost $700 a month and it will only pay for 6 visits a year! So, if you know me, you know I have to see a doctor way more that 6x's a year! So, we are looking into getting back on JPS Connection but, we may make more money and not qualify..Dan is looking for another job but we all know how hard that is going to be! I spoke to a JPS screener yesterday and was told they are still working on applications from August! They have been bombarded with applications due to people losing their jobs..So, you know what this means? It means that if you get in, it will take forever to see a doctor and the urgent care clinics and ER will be packed worse that what it already is..This is not good! Sorry, I sidetracked. Our nephew (Dan's sister's oldest who is 14yrs old) was just diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma. They put his port in yesterday and also took bone marrow samples to see it the cancer had spread. Hopefully, today they will find out the stage and the treatment plan. As a mother, I can not fathom how she must be feeling. Thankfully they have us (family), friends, and a good church home that will help with whatever is needed. In case you didn't know, Dan's father lives with them and their 4 kiddos. She called me last night and wanted to tell me what she had been thinking and feeling. What she said touched my heart and made me so thankful I do not have a job. She said that she felt that I haven't gotten a job yet because Heavenly Father knew that someone needed to be around to help with Pops( Dans' dad). Someone to take him to appts or just get him out of the house. Now, if you know me...you will know that I love this little man so much! He has been a father to me since I never had one. He and my step father are the two wonderful men that God has put into my life. Pops and I have so much fun when we go out to eat. In fact, he tells everyone he has a 40ish girlfriend! lol!! I'm so grateful that I can be of some help to them during what is going to be a difficult road they will have to travel. I pray that our nephew will be healed and be able to continue his journey through this life. If you feel inclined to say a prayer, it would be greatly appreciated..